FML post

Actually i suppose to blog about the trip, but i really got no mood to blog about it.

Having super effing emo mood ...

It's all about him. He just let me down and down and down...

Things really changed *as he said* including our LOVE.

maybe i was thinking he is the one, the only one can give me hapiness. *stupid hope*

Things do change after the 4 years of sweet moments.

At the beginning was extreme sweet. Sweet text message every second, huggies every time, sweet words hanging on his mouth, etc... Now? bossy, choi-lei-dou-soh, no more sweet words, i got not more than 10 messages per day, no more romance, lack of caring... FHL

i tried hard to control my emo, end up with FML mood. I bursted into tears for infinity times and he know this. We talked and it getting even worst * like the world is going to end* . He was like not caring the problem and behaved like i'm making small problem to big problem. He is not going to change at all and said i'm sensitive. *who is the one fucking sensitive?!* He asked me to express out my feeling, i bla bla bla everything out and he answered me " Things do change. U cannot compare with last time" *fuck u!* why cannot compare with last time? *because last time is just to make me accept u izzit?* After that just treat me like a shit and tell me cannot compare with last time? *fuck u x1000*

Today, i bought the muffin cup tray and deciding to buy the ingredient tomorrow, thinking to make vanilla muffins for YOU to gain your love back, end up having FML moment *throw away the stupid cup tray* u are not deserve for this. He doesn't think he is doing wrong like that and the worst is he is making me like i'm a "siao dog" like that. Bark at him this few day. wtf

I had enough. Since u are not trying to change, not trying to get my heart back, not trying to appreciate the 4 years, *kung-fu kick ur balls!* what for i just keep you in my heart with the security password of your name somemore? It's time to set you free. *as your wish* fly like a bird then hit the tree!*

Everything is just like magic. *Proff!* a lovely guy changed to a devil with "let-it-be" behaviour in a second.

Hate those people kissing in front of me especially during my FML period. Don't try to show how sweet u and your bf are to me, i prefer u just fuck him in front of me. * kill all this hiao po!*

of cause i don't hope to just let go the 4 years of handcore relationship, but if it's better to let go than one person hold on tight and the other having fuckin' "let-it-be" personality, then just let go bah.... I mean what's the point to hold so tight and the other don't tressure the love? Waste time. waste money, waste vitality, and the worst is hurt your feeling *but u gain experience larh*  who the fuck need those experience!

why is love something we all dream for? It's just a whole lot of lost dreams and it always ends in tears!

had enaugh of nightmares... i hope it's the time to get sweet dreams. Dream about the life in Form 4, i knw it's impossible. As Cyn said we can't restart life~

be happy candy...
Life is fun *lier!*

anyway, will blog about the trip once i get all the photos from the devil with "let-it-be" behaviour.


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